I think it's time for a vacation. I'm noticing that this blog began with talk about my travels and excursions and was definitely less of a personal diary, but now that it's been a while since I've been out:). Don't worry, Jamie and I are planning out our trip to Aruba for the month of April, so you'll get to see some pictures from that. I guess I will hit some life highlights, they are in no particular order:
My Birthday
So I had an AWESOME birthday! My mother, sisters, nieces and brother-in-law were able to make it up for my birthday weekend! Jamie had planned out things to do and surprised everyone with tickets to see an improv comedy show! He also was super creative with gift wrapping as he didn't just wrap the gifts. He typed clues and put them in balloons with shaving cream leaving McKenzie and I to pop the balloons in front of everyone in the hallway...we popped a couple of balloons in the middle of the day(Audacity of Hope & 2 addresses). Then we went dinner, The Cheesecake Factory, where Jamie treated everyone...I'm telling you that I'm definitely a lucky person, and yes, Jamie is a giving and thoughtful guy! After dinner we drove to the first address, the Comedy show, where McKenzie volunteered to go on stage! Then we drove to the 2nd address, a very elegant dessert place, Finale. It was a great day and went by way too fast....oh, did I forget to mention I popped the last balloon when we got back after singing happy birthday and that my last balloon was...A TRIP TO ARUBA?!?!..So awesome:)!! I love me a travel excursion to somewhere new.....oh and warm...oh and with beautiful water:)!
My Grandma's Birthday
My grandma's 79th birthday just passed and it was the first one since she passed on. I kept my promise and made a donation to the library. I tried making in on the phone, but found that I wasn't emotionally stable enough so I sent in a letter and a check. I got the best e-mail once they received my donation. Firstly the woman actually new my grandma, and appreciated the letter I sent. Secondly the money will be spent by replacing the book" A Walk to Remember" since the copy went missing, and the rest will go towards Montrose's New Library Fund. I responded to the woman's really thoughtful e-mail and she responded back because I asked about volunteering opportunities. I'm excited to say that I will be helping with the summer festival by washing blueberries and helping out with whatever I can with the breakfast with a person named Biff...who I can remember my grandma talking about...I can't wait, and I can't think of anything greater than doing this in memory of my grandma. I also bought myself some flowers...yellow ones...
Jamie's Continuing Success
Yeah- so Jamie's game is on the Apple website! They actually sent an e-mail to Curty Schilling and he forwarded it to Jamie! It's so cool, especially after we went to the Apple store here and saw the icon for the game on the wall in the store...go SUBATOMIC STUDIOS!
My Life Revelation
I feel great to be me. I feel like I was a person who in high school and beginning of college really knew herself, but got lost along the way. I know that each person goes through identity struggle. I also know that some people are more in tuned with themselves than others, to each their own. People will live life how the want. I just have been appreciating little things like being around people that make me laugh and questioning why I would be around with people that I don't laugh. It sounds simple, but I think that I got so busy and comfortable with life, I kinda lost myself for a bit...anyway, it's good to be back and just finding opportunities to laugh and enjoy moments.
I've also had the revelation that I want to just focus on my friendships in the world. I also realized that I was creating way too many expectations for my relationship with Jamie. Why do I care if we get married? I just want to enjoy the time I have with him and stop thinking about "where are we going"....too many Disney and lifetime movies. I've been trying to make my life match the life with others....You know get married, have babies....and then it hit me, why do I want my life like everyone else's? I've always relished the fact that I am unique and I don't need to do "what everyone else does". I know Jamie loves me, and I love him.
I also know that I love to travel A LOT....I'm not sure about my intense travel passion and the thought of kids. Maybe my passion will die down a bit, but right now I just love to escape way too much! This is not to say that I don't want kids. I think I do, because I know that all of my teaching experience has opened my eyes to all the different parenting styles that exist as well as what you can get out of a kid with each parenting style....I think I might have an idea on how to raise a couple of good people in the world. I also know that I'd want to be a good mom, and I know in my heart that I couldn't be the best mom I could be if I don't really establish myself, be selfish now, and get some good stories to tell:)!
As for Jamie and I's Future, which is something a lot of people seem to think about:)....well I don't know. I do love him and would love to end up with him, but we both need to make sure we're making decisions that will be best for our lives. I am not sure what those decisions are right now. I can't say if I'll return to my school next year or not. I don't plan on giving him any sort of ultimatum about marry me to lose me. I can't say what I'll do. I'm just going to let time answer the big questions, and I'm not going to worry about them anymore:)....I'm just going to enjoy the people I spend time with every day and like I said...just try to be a good friend and good person in the world...it's the only thing that truly matters to me right now...
Peace and Love,
Allyson:)
I guess the beauty of losing loved ones, makes you want to live an even happier life. maybe it's knowing that you don't know when your time is up, maybe it's that you don't know want to take life too seriously cause you'll just die anyway...I don't know...but I thank my grandma for my new breath of fresh air on living my life....
